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Mission...Accomplished. Well, Sort Of.

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Unlike our former Commander in Chief, I set out to do exactly what I said I was going to do. To be more specific, I did TWO things I said I was going to do. Originally, several weeks back, I set a goal to hit 20 for a post count for the month of November.

I did that.

In order to do that, I decided that I would come up with a list of 50 things I was thankful for in celebration of Thanksgiving, something that most people don't traditionally 'celebrate' in any way OTHER than stuffing their mouths full of fatty foods and watching football.

I did that too.

Considering all the stuff going on in my world at any given moment, I have decided that there is no hand on this planet large enough to give me the pat on the back that I deserve. So I am simply going to conjure one up in my head and give one to myself. Especially since no one else is lining up to.

I earned it.


That list might seem like it was easy, but it actually wasn't. The easy route would have been to go with people or mor…

50 Random Things I'm Thankful For #46 - #50

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As Carson would say (does that show my age?), I hold in my hand, the LAST envelope.

Cheers.

Applause.

Yes, it is finally over. This concludes the list of Random Things I'm Thankful For in 2010, or what I called LOFTY 2010, but I GOTTA get a better name.

Now...on with the thanksgivingfulness...


#46 - Thanks to All Our Men and Women in All of Our Armed Forces

Both home and abroad, living and deceased.

I've always had a deep appreciation for anyone in the military, especially around the holidays, when they have to be away from their families in some far away land, in danger, in harm's way, and sometimes, too many times, for all the wrong reasons.

Thankfully, most of the folks in our family are not deployed at the moment, which is a good thing, but some people I know have family members they are missing. Hopefully they are safe and they are well.

One person I often think of when I need a strength boost, or a reminder of how difficult it can often be for those in the military, is the…

50 Random Things I'm Thankful For #41 - #45

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Continuing with the list of Random Things I'm Thankful For in 2010 (don't worry, it's almost over...), or what I like to call LOFTY 2010, until someone else blows me away with something better. These aren't in any order as far as importance, I just wrote them as they came to me.

Now...on with the thanksgivingfulness...


#41 - Thanks, Peter Jackson, for Turning my Favorite Books into a Great Film Trilogy

It would have been SO easy for the movies based on the J.R.R. Tolkien classic trilogy of books 'The Lord of the Rings' to be a load of total, unadulterated crap on a stick. I mean, a bunch of hairy-footed little people running around searching for a magic ring, with elves and goblins and wizards and dwarves and some mostly naked thing speaking in hisses and eating raw fish?

Yeah...in the wrong hands, it could have just turned into something so utterly horrible and unwatchable and been the most laughable thing in the universe, as so many fantasy films of the past have…

50 Random Things I'm Thankful For #36 - #40

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Before we continue with the list of Random Things I'm Thankful For in 2010, or what I like to call LOFTY 2010, notice the brief hiccup last night in the lack of a post?

That's called 'losing electrical power' on Thanksgiving, and since we've lived in this home (which I am thankful for, BTW) it's the second T-Day that this has occurred. Helluva week. But, that only puts me slightly behind schedule, and means that I'll trickle this into the weekend.

Now...on with the thanksgivingfulness...


#36 - Thanks for the Talent I was Born With

We all have some unique gifts or talents that are just...implanted...inside of us when we enter this world.

Some people have the ability to throw a football extremely accurately and fast. Some can play the piano and understand its intricacies. Some are able to look at and just have an affinity for equations and numbers.

I have always had an ability to draw.

I'm not saying that I've always had the ability to draw WELL. And I am …

50 Random Things I'm Thankful For #31 - #35

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Brief update on the events of last night first. Carter was NOT admitted to the hospital. We were prescribed a medication to lower his blood pressure. No pharmacy that is open today has it.

Naturally.

We are to keep his sodium levels down as much as we can, fluids up, and watch the pressure. As of last night the highest reading before the meds was 143 over 96. This kidney thing sucks. Is it serious?

In most cases? No. Am I over-worrying? Perhaps. But I sure as shit know what it is like to LOSE THE WAR AGAINST INCREDIBLE ODDS when it comes to a kid, and so therefore, I believe I have earned the right to be uneasy.

Period.

Plus, this 'un-related swelling of his glands and super-enlargement of his tonsils'?

I just want some fucking answers.

Period.

I won't get them. I know this from past experience. I just want them.

So...happy FREAKIN' Thanksgiving. I'm getting by, but truthfully? I miss my Mom. Bottom line. I love my wife, I love my kids, and the in-laws and extended family a…

We Interrupt the Regularly Scheduled Event of Me Lying Out of My Ass For This Special News Bulletin

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OK, I'm not REALLY lying, in the technical sense, in that I actually AM thankful for all the things I have said up to this point. And it has felt VERY good to write about these things. But timing is everything, and I gotta be honest...in many ways, I am simply not FEELING it as much as I might be indicating.

There are a few reasons really.

Several black clouds hang overhead.

The Bennett cloud is always there, as we desperately try to make any headway we can in trying to communicate with him. It's hard...damn hard, and frankly I crunch on Tylenol like they are Sweet-Tarts.

I get headaches a lot. And there are other issues, looming, of all kinds. Economical, medically terminal, relational, and on and on.

There are days when you sometimes just don't want to get out of bed. But you do anyway...because you love the ones you're with. Period.

And when one of them suffers, you suffer. When another suffers, you suffer even more.

Case in point? My other son, Carter.

He and Jennifer…

50 Random Things I'm Thankful For #26 - #30

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Continuing with the list of Random Things I'm Thankful For in 2010, or what I like to call LOFTY 2010, until someone else blows me away with something better. These aren't in any order as far as importance, I just wrote them as they came to me.

Now...on with the thanksgivingfulness...


#26 - Thanks, Blogger, for the Outlet and Info Dispersion

Yeah, I use you a bit for therapy, but you are also a damn good tool for information dispersion to a wide range of people in one swoop. Stuck here in the center of Ohio, I can reach so many people at one time, in one sitting, all over the globe, and that's a good thing. Mom gets her updates on the kids, so do so many others.

And it works in reverse, as I get to stay on top of all the OTHER people I care about, some of whom I know personally, others who I have never met, but who I feel as if I have known all my life.

You are weird though, Blogger, I gotta hand it to you. You break down barriers in a very strange way...make us say things that…

50 Random Things I'm Thankful For #21 - #25

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Continuing with the list of Random Things I'm Thankful For in 2010, or what I like to call LOFTY 2010, until someone else blows me away with something better. These aren't in any order as far as importance, I just wrote them as they came to me.

Now...on with the thanksgivingfulness...


#21 - Thanks for the Price Break, DirecTV

I live in what I like to call the Bermuda Triangle of the AFC North.

I am besieged on all sides by my hated enemies.

To the immediate south are the Cincinnati BangGirls. To the immediate North are the Cleveland BrownStains. To the East? The demon horde known as the Pittsburgh SteelWhores, led by Ben Rapelisberger.

My beloved Baltimore Ravens are ALL the way through the Appalachian Mountains, on the East Coast of the Atlantic Ocean, and I am stuck here in the Tatooine of the United States...OHIO.

But DirecTV has the NFL Sunday Ticket, which allows you to see EVERY game the NFL has to offer. But it is expensive. This year, because of my employment status, it was…

50 Random Things I'm Thankful For #16 - #20

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Continuing with the list of Random Things I'm Thankful For in 2010, or what I like to call LOFTY 2010, until someone else blows me away with something better. These aren't in any order as far as importance, I just wrote them as they came to me.

Now...on with the thanksgivingfulness...


#16 - Thanks, Mom, for the Emotional Utility Belt

It's actually very well stocked. See, if you read Blogzilly with any regularity, you know I have some Daddy issues. Much of it brought on by my Dad walking out when I was a wee lad and choosing not to have a relationship with me, but more from the shit that came after that at the hands of my Step-Father. This really bothers my Mom. She carries a tremendous amount of guilt because of it. We spoke about it at length during her last visit.

I'd give anything to be able to take that guilt away, but it is beyond my power. The only person with that power is, obviously, my Mom. But it's hard to do, to let go of those things that accumulate over a …

50 Random Things I'm Thankful For #11 - #15

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Continuing with the list of Random Things I'm Thankful For in 2010, or what I like to call LOFTY 2010, until someone else blows me away with something better. These aren't in any order as far as importance, I just wrote them as they came to me.

Now...on with the thanksgivingfulness...


#11 - Thanks for The Right Mix of Medication

Even though Jesus is on the Pill Box, the real thanks go not to the Lord and Savior but rather to my latest Psychiatrist, who went out on a limb and prescribed for me, not an anti-depressant, but something entirely different. He saw in my history a pattern of anti-depressant failure, and decided not to TAKE that path again.

Instead he tried a drug I had never used before, but ironically one my 2 year old son HAD...Topamax. Used to control Epilepsy, it is also used as a mood stabilizer in some cases of people with Bi-Polar Disorder. Even though he believed I did not have Bi-Polar, he felt I should give the medicine a try.

Maybe it was the medicine, maybe it …

50 Random Things I'm Thankful For #06 - #10

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Continuing with the list of Random Things I'm Thankful For in 2010, or what I like to call LOFTY 2010, until someone else blows me away with something better. These aren't in any order as far as importance, I just wrote them as they came to me.

Now...on with the thanksgivingfulness...


#06 - Thanks...For The Mammaries

Of COURSE you knew I was going to go there eventually, I figured I'd get it out of the way early, that way you wouldn't always be wondering when I'd be dropping in a reference to the Golden Winnebagos. And let's face it guys...when we feel down, nothing perks us up better than a peek at nature's bounty...so to speak. It's a sad truth...but it is a Truth nonetheless.

At least give me some credit...for visuals instead of a photo I chose a piece of art.

See? CLASSY.

And what a great piece of art it is. I have a print of this super awesome painting of Catwoman by Adam Hughes, signed by the man himself. Mr. Hughes is known for his comic book artwork o…