Sunday, October 26, 2014
Sorta Silent Sunday: Not As Silent As Intended
WAY back when I started this Sunday thing, I had a follow-up immediately scheduled. I had it so because I knew that I would need it. At the time, there were lots of transitions in Casa de Lilly. I even have (or had, because I just killed that old Blogger Draft), the sentence 'Get used to lots of images and not a lot of words for a while...Trying to figure some things out.'
Because after two months, it remains true. Though I fed the blog with nothing at all to be perfectly clear. No images. Nothing. But the part about trying to figure things out...that remains exactly the same, though my location has altered.
I sit here in a rented condo, living alone, separated from Jennifer, my wife of nearly twelve years who I've known for longer still, as the Dissolution of our marriage looms over the raging seas of my life like the coming of a storm. I will be talking about this in future posts, she is cool with me discussing aspects of it all. I just don't feel up to it today.
The most startling thing to get accustomed to, which is all I want to say at the moment about the separation, is the total and complete sense of human singularity I feel when I am here in this place, and how punctuated it is whenever I think of my two sons and all of the things I have lost over the past several months. Think about any of it too much, and I begin to sink into levels of depression that rival periods in this blog that I never want to go back to.
It's a fight, plain and simple, to stay on a positive course.
But fight I will, because I have to.
Enjoy some pictures, taken over the course of the last two months. Sadly, many of the photos taken of the boys...I did not take myself. They are excellent photos though and I love looking at them. Sorry I have been out of touch. Life has been...a bit on the crazy side.
Until next time...