Showing posts from May, 2014

Wake-Up Call

I sleep alone.

Have for a few years now. After Bennett had his issues with seizures, Mrs. Lilly and I were never comfortable with the boy sleeping in his own room. What if he started having seizures in the middle of the night? And he did, back in the day,, night too (during 2009 when he was being ravaged by them), and we wanted to be there for every cluster.

He was teeny then, and still in diapers. So he fit very easily twixt us both on a monstrous King Size mattress. Times change, and while his seizures stopped after brain surgery, fears of what he might do because of his disabilities remained were he to awaken in the middle of the night and go wandering about. So he remained in the bed.

He changed with the times, and has grown like a genetically engineered tomato plant. I was getting almost no sleep from his rolling around and finding immense comfort by using me as sort of Man-Pillow. At some point, it was going to have to be him or me.

Guess who got the short straw?


The Running Man

I could say that the reason I had not posted in so long after The Triumphant Return was that I just enjoyed turning on my very close to death Dell laptop and seeing that oh-so-beautiful photo of Scarlett Johansson as Black Widow staring back at me. It was like she was saying 'Good morning pal...have a great day!'

And she was saying it directly to ME. Can you imagine?

So WHAT if that is one of the signs of slipping deeper into the abyss of pure insanity? Well, the truth is, that even if I said it, it wouldn't be true. Yeah I noticed the photo from time to time through my sometimes red flickering screen which I could get back if I twisted my LED display in just the right way, but the fact is? I was at another one of those nasty impasses.

When I rebooted this blog, I made a kind of commitment...but I found it to be one I can't keep. I said I was going to turn over a new leaf and be more positive, more upbeat...lay down a different set of cards here than people were used …